Monday, November 15, 2010

We'll Make Time

So, for the past few months I've been slightly in love with a married guy.

Thought I might as well say it.

Of course, that's an exaggeration. What's more true is that I've been working at this school for awhile now and there's been this very attractive teacher who has gone out of his way to be nice to me, and who for several weeks was NOT wearing a wedding ring (apparently the kids noticed this too... he says it was getting resized). Not that I was planning on "going after" him anyway, however it was a nice type of guy to think of. Buuuut now there's a smarting of embarrassment that I think we both sense. After that little revelation we mostly avoid each other.

I don't feel any less gross.

Anyway.

I'm at a Coffee Bean right now, trying to force myself to write, but I can't get into the mindset. I know I'll get there, but all I want to do is daydream. I am far more of a dreamer than a do-er, absolutely hands-down all the time. I really want to finish my thesis Western screenplay once and for all, but I can't make myself get into serial killer in the West mode. Dang. It.

I haven't been on my usual diet of Dark Stuff lately. Ever since Freaks & Geeks I've been either rewatching my favorite happy 90's movies or trying to find all things Apatow-esque- IE slightly silly humor with lots of character development. Apparently Apatow is pretty much the king of that. I've been re-watching most of his films, too, and also anything with Steve Carell in it. I don't think I've ever had stronger cravings for happy, funny movies. Strange for me. Or maybe there's just been an absence of really interesting character-driven drama lately. Ah well, that will change soon, what with Oscar season and (HELLOOOOOO WESTERNNNNN) True Grit coming up. AHH Coen Brothers you ruin my life and rock it at the same time!

I finally found out my fate this Christmas is to be a happy one: I am going to Tejas for Christmas! Happy news since not two weeks ago my mother and I agreed that there was no way that was going to work out. I was way more bummed out about it than I expected to be, so now I am doubly pleased to know that I'll be around my old stomping grounds soon. Of course, there's nothing I ever miss about the place, and I'm glad it will only be for about a week, but I love my parents and there's still something magic about driving around in cars with my old best friend who I used to ride around with in the back of her mom's car. Not to mention her almost-fiance will of course be joining us. Anyway, I've already got batty about Christmas presents and bought about a billion. I can't help it. I get idiotically carried away by the idea of giving people stuff they will like, and the hunt. Ooh the hunt is worth it.

It's going to be a good Christmas.

2 comments:

Sonja said...

Oh don't feel gross! I know we have...er...vastly different perspectives on love and such, but there was no way you could have known.

*comfort hugs*

I haven't felt like writing either. Just too tired mentally.

It's funny that you mention how you're aiming towards happy instead of dark because I've found myself angling towards stuff that isn't science fiction lately (which is kind of odd for me). After Freaks and Geeks, I went for Six Feet Under (and before that, my Mad Men marathon).

Anyway, I'm so pleased it worked out that you'll be able to be with family for Christmas (even if you won't be able to come to my neck of the woods). Family for the holidays is a good thing.

I wish I was good at Christmas presents, but I'm not. Like I don't even know what I should get my family, who are the people I probably know the best... I always feel like such a bad friend when I get somebody something generic. heh

Katrina said...

Oh, buying for people you know well is sometimes the worst!

AND i think you are an awesome present-giver. you have always given me rad stuff IE the shirt I am funnily enough wearing right now that has gotten a TON of compliments. :D

and *thank you* the main problem is it's just awkward for no reason now.

Maybe we've just exhausted our preferred genres? I need to watch all of SFU one of these days.