you're not going to freak out and think that you're not supposed to take this job. money is money. you're not going to freak out because it's taking so long. you're going to stop being irresponsible with your time and you're going to stop living obsessively in your head. you're going to stop thinking about breaking all of your commitments just because they scare you.
you're going to patiently wait for this job, and blockbuster as well. you will work them both and when you have bad days you will just chuck it up to life and not destiny. if breaking bad calls you one day, you can freak out, but for now.... stay the path. do all that you can and for god's sake stop this stupid headtrip.